This year, one of my best friends said that I have, a deep need to be loved.

When she said that, I was automatically like, HEY! NO! FUCK YOU! I DONT *NEED* TO BE LOVED! WHATEVER!

But the more I look at it, the more it might be true.

I started coming out to people as a junior in college. Since then, Ive come out to tons of friends, my cousins, coworkers, and I dont even think twice when meeting new people.

But I did look back at my 2016 resolutions and found this gem: Come out to my parents.

Ehhhh maybe not this year. My mom has said really hurtful things about me in the past. She didnt talk to me for 4 months after I changed my major in college. I know our relationship is shit because we dont communicate how I want us too. And at the same time, I dont think coming out to her will be the magical band-aid that fixes everything.

That said, this year, I made more friends than ever before. I said yes to new things. I auditioned and put myself out there. I moved out of my parents house and started living on my own. I went on dates. I fucked a ton of guys (not actually a ton). I held a guy in my arms as he sobbed because he didnt know how to handle his emotions. And I cried. A lot. But I laughed and smiled even more.

Im ready for more laughing and smiling in 2017. And I might come out to my parents. Who knows.

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